Thinking Back

Tonight as I went back into my closet to change into my pajamas for the night, I passed a picture that I pass everyday, every time I go into my bathroom. It's a picture of Kaden when he was 1 year old in a cute little khaki courderoy jacket with a blue button up shirt underneath on a brown leather chair.
It is the most adorable picture, with a little smirk on his round little face, I couldn't help but stop and stare a little longer at the picture. It made me smile. It made me think back to when he was one year old. What a smart, quirky, whitty and funny boy he was, and still is. His little personality was so strong then and is stronger than ever now. I love it.
As I stared at that picture a wave of feelings came over me. Do I really want my baby to grow up so fast? Why do I say that I am most comfortable around kids when they start to get older like 2's and 3 year olds? Why don't I just enjoy my journey with him now?
I LOVE my days with Kaden. Some are better than others, but that goes with being a parent. He is such an angel. He is such an obidient child, whitty to talk to and smart as all get out. I try to soak up all that I can from that kid. He gives me sunshine on cloudy days just by saying "I love you Mom", and then proceeding to outreach his arms to give me a big hug. I just melt, everytime. He always seems to know just when to do this.
I can't put everything that I am feeling into words, a little emotional, and not quite sure I would make sense writing it down.
I know I can't drop ALL motherly duties to sit with him all day, but I constantly remind myself at the end of each day that I am SO blessed to have been sent Kaden. He has a lot to teach me, and if I just let myself enjoy the journey with him, He will bless my life even more. I love you Kaden more than infinite and beyond!